a
story written by Mr. Ramuel Mendoza Raagas (CAL 1992-97204)
on
August 14, 2001 for the Creative Writing
110 MHX (Realistic Mode Short Fiction) Class
Moderated
by Dr. Jose Yap Dalisay, Jr.
The patriot-named streets were
black, but not with ladies' dresses. Ferdie Co and Tactus Retocar were
muttering in one side. Tactus, unlike a society columnist, was all of one voice
be it with common birds or in his ephemeral stint on TV (Tactus might as well
have been a game show contestant). There were no celebrities around.
It took some time before a squid
balls cart could be detected. This, perhaps not so much for profit, parked by
the numerous but incompletely-casted mock Rocketeer white legs resting on
common couches, all revealed by the now-swung open glass door which had a tint
the quality of many a Filipino-driven car's window. Two un-uniformed men crack
a jibe at the legs of three sharp-dressed men.
Across that joint, which had its signboards no longer lit up lady-bright, was the other, more historicized joint in which Ferdie Co had smoked a joint hours ago. It was one of the fine beer joints (actually the eldest noted) which atypically had not housed a unit of American Standard (nefas!). Tonight it was so cold, too much so even for a lizard.
A man ate noodles with roast duck flesh which was as spittable as queer liver.
Could this be the place whereabouts his mother had
finished medicine? Was not this place better off under Martial Law? This cloudy
September night, there was no moon to mirror the Circle whereupon were planted
everbrown limbs. Was there now no Anita Pamintuan (to teach letters) or, before
Aunt Cora Aquino's days, ********** (to lend the shirt of another name to that
tongue-fried chatterbox, who had slain, afar) to provide a genuine brightness
in lieu of the fluorescent lamp posts under which no one now reads, not the least a
president-to-be--- no-one?
The eating man noticed some of the duck brown bone
bits which seemed as bitable as liver. He just set them on the ash-tray like sungka chips.
Gone were the horn honks of bicycle-boarded pimps
from 1995 (The music and underlying percussion of which he had foregone for the
Community of Solidarity.). Tonight there were bikers, silenced by
Fierra-dispatched cops.
The man is so happy to be drinking so much tea. Its
warm diluteness needed no fruit or honey to make it inviting. He frowned back
from one brief trip to the American Standard to see cartoons on the TV display
instead of the silk he didn't demandingly glue his eyes on upon his first
attention.
The eyes of cloth-bound nipples are best-recalled
from high school days, but the contrived shot that was served to him became a
proxy for tonight's lack of Chinese smiles or even tender cheeks, for that
matter.
Two cups later, his inspection for the display's
corner watermark proved positive despite his bewilderment at solid colours
within unelementary shapes. He was about to relight his paused cigarette when
reality surfaced again on screen. He zapped his focus to the waiter's
slacks-tucked palms and viewed the TV again, which gave him a yin-yang of the
4-bit and 32-bit coloured worlds. He was about to turn up his ears, as if they
were had controls like hearing aids, but he just snapped back to his soup upon
noting the fighting-dull prosody of a screen-confined car chase. The man left some
soup, but not as if he were in a hurry. For not leaving a tip, the man got
quite a decent, cordial farewell bid.
He walked past Ferdie and Tactus who knew his face
and limp (and not much more) even as they took a break last summer at Alaminos.
The two wanted to be heard, but not spoken to.
The man eyed a building to the left and proceeded to
walk through district-bound roads under construction. He pulled off to a shop
unit which was a goalee's kick away from the midnight-silenced mall.
"New manager, same services--- just like a
beerhouse,¡± the man thought. He rented a machine and started playing
Minesweeper. He was so consumed by it, albeit not sweating all the while within
the place¡¯s comfort, that he shot up almost half of a 238 ml canned juice¡¯s
contents. The rest could have been used to put out cigarette buts, except that
smoking was not allowed under the new proprietorship. The crushed pear juice
tasted friendly and relieving, although not erotic to the man¡¯s taste.
Where to sleep? Rooms there are, more available than
whores, a thousand pesos a piece. Home itself is not a hundred pesos away, but
even without traffic, he had not the patience. And is there no transient space
in the student¡¯s quarters? So transient that checking in beyond 10 p.m. is
non-negotiable in the darkness-shut inlet in which he had enjoyed meal-cheap
lodging two summers ago occasionally after reporting out of his Ermita office.
There is a building, friendly to bar examinees. Its package of hours was best
signed up around noon.
How can these streets be so safe and so¡¦ All the
grunts marking every other corner do not bother to light up a torch of violent
gropes. ¡°Is it only with me that it¡¯s this way?¡± the man thought so.
He is greeted by yet another security guard for the night. Once more a friendly query, as if he were the protagonist of some investigative video game. The man approaches the stairs, but takes advantage of the elevator instead. This particular elevator is one of those rotten ones yet it never snaps to a desired conclusion. The man walks the corridors as if he
were re-exercising a fire drill. There is the door with the right number and a
glass eye below that. The man lies down. The floor is cold and his shirt is
short-sleeved. Lying down, he not so much wants a blanket as the motion of
unshirting himself. The door opens. A girl squeaks with a vaginal voice. She
feels so glad to have a room-mate just a tug away. The two see the man¡¯s
gel-set hair, a fat sporty sign pen clipped to his breast pocket. The two close
the door. One reaches for the handle of the phone, which now serves as good as
an intercon. The guard asks questions to the speaking girl, whom he knows by
name and course. The girl gets jumpy within the bounds of assurance. The guard
himself goes up the stairs as if he were munching on a piece of bread all the
while. He knows that a scream from the far side will get to his ears, so he
proceeds unequipped. Anyway, the girl has no walkie-talkie to match his, nor
does he have a cellular phone, although the girl had mistook his Nextel
walkie-talkie for a big-grip handy phone when she had first gotten to know of
his serving their building. The guard gets to where he¡¯s supposed to, and
there¡¯s even no need to knock, nor even the touch the man. The guard takes his
time. ¡°Sir, get up. It¡¯s morning already. The sun¡¯s out.¡±
Were the man able to hear the guard¡¯s words he would
have perhaps employed him as a domestic wake-up catalyst way back in his
Project 7 residence. The latter man¡¯s ineffectuality apparent, our main man
went on sleeping without even dreaming.
Last week, the guard got to roll a human calf with aside of his shoe--- even managing to get more ensuing motion out of it than his caloric input to the task (Talk about cost-efficiency.)---, but that was on the
side walk, and he was only eager for such a motion for want of a bootblack.
Right now, the guard was not just up to it, having
failed to warm up with gin, rock salt and citrus marbles the night before: his
habit with a colleage from the previous shift when things got bustling in that
district (i.e., other people¡¯s parties).
Eventually, the man rose, without even exuding any
conspicuous smell.
"Where's my pen?¡±
The guard reached out to him.
"No, this is not it. I had it snug on my shirt."
¡°Just look around here. Maybe it¡¯s just off to the
side.¡±
The man did just that.
"Sorry, sir. You can't sleep here."
The man settled on the lobby sofa, in which prolonged sitting was more allowed than bivouacking in the tiles. A while later, numbly certain, the guards wouldn't shoo him off the ground floor's reception area, he hit the streets again.
The street was open to the morning clouds, the way that the floor upstairs had been to his sleep way past midnight.
The man walked off into a shop. There were more customers than attendants. He went straight to the sink. He was more into the faucet than the mirror, which he studied for its pinpointing of pustule-like morning stars on the corners of his red-webbed eyes. He ten retreated to the shop area proper, and exchanged greetings with one of the staff, who cocked a bit to the side, presenting him with just what he wanted.
The man dialed up the two girls¡¯ room-mate--- the
one he knew among them eight. It was this one who caught the other end by the
third ring. She acknowledged his call, but not that item she had given him six
Christmases ago.